"Paano na kaya?" :(

Matagal-tagal din hindi ako nakapag-BLOG ngayon simula nung nagpasukan na, at sabayan pa ng mga performances sa Choir, sobrang busy ko na talaga. At ngayon, naisipan ko na mag-post ngayon ng bagong blog dahil may problema ako. sa ngayon kasi dito ko lang talaga malalabas tong nararamdaman ko kaya dito na ako nagpunta.

Ang hirap talaga kasi ng problema ko. Ang problema ko, IN LOVE AKO SA KAIBIGAN KO!! Ang pangalan niya ay Gilbert, ka-choirmate ko siya sa Choir namin sa RTU (Himig Rizalia). Sa choir namin bawal ang magka-relasyon o magka-inLABan, kaya kung sasali ka sa dito dapat manhid ka, pero mapipigilan mo bang hindi ma in-love sa isang tao? hindi diba?! sinabi mo dati hindi ka maiinlove pero ngayon, ano? kaya wag tayo maging sigurado sa sarili natin kasi hindi natin alam na bukas o sa susunod na araw malay mo, mahal mo na bigla siya.. kaya ngayon, hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko, hindi siya gwapo, BABALUUU nga siya eh, matangkad, payat, matalino, mabait at super maalaga siya. pero siguro dahil nga magkaibigan kami at super close na kami, nag-aasaran pa, dun siguro nagsimula 'to. kaka-asar ko kasi sa baba niya, yan! tuloy, na-inlove ako sa kanya.. sa tuwing may practice ng choir, lage kaming nag-aasaran.. at sa tuwing ginagawa namin un, sobrang saya ko, kung pwede ganun nalang lage, kaya pag dumating na ung day ng parctice ng choir, super duper excited ako kasi makikita ko siya.pero habang tumatagal, habang dumadaan ang panahon, lalong lumalala, lalong lumalalim ang nararamdaman ko sa kanya! at ang hirap pigilan, parang gusto kong sumabog, gustong kong sbihin sa kanya. kaso hindi pwede, dalawa lang naman ang posibleng mangyare kung sabihin ko sa kanya. Una, bawal sa choir 'to baka pareho pa kaming matanggal if ever, at pangalawa, magkaibigan kami, pag sinabi ko sa kanya 'to baka mawala ung Friendship namin at hindi na kami mag-usap dahil magkakailangan na. kaya, sobrang problemado ako.. ang hirap ma-in Love, First time ko 'to. PROMISE !! >o<

kaya ang naiisip ko nalang sa ngayon, mejo lalayo muna ako sa kanya para hindi lumala tong nararamdaman ko at gagawin ko nalang siyang inspirasyon sa pag-aaral ko, kahit na minsan sakit sa ulo ang binigigay nito saken.. haaay. mejo naluwagan na ko, thanks for Bloggers, parang Diary lang. ahahah !! naglabas lng ng sama ng loob. good luck saken, sana mawala na tong nararamdaman ko. ahahaha !! XD

Theme Song ko sa sarili ko: "Paano na kaya?" by Bugoy XD

Things Girls Look for in a Guy

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1. Honesty - Be true about who you are. Whether you know or not, we can tell when you are putting on a show. Plus the way you act on the first date, we will expect you to act that way forever.
2. Well Groomed - We don’t expect you to be a super model, but at least make sure your hair is brushed, as well as your teeth. We notice the smallest things, so make sure you cover it all.
3. Sense Of Humor - When you talk to us, we expect you to know how to make us laugh, but don’t turn dorky on us. An occasional laugh every now and then is good for the first few dates. Don’t start cracking jokes left and right until maybe the fourth date.
4. A Lot of Compassion - looking forward to a second date. The more compassion the better. You can never be too nice.
5. Courage-able - Girls hate it when a guy doesn’t have the guts to ask her out herself, and when he gets his friend to do it for him, it’s a major turn off.
6. Manner-able - Every girl wants a guy that knows his manners. I’m not talking, yes ma’am, no ma’am. A thank you, and a your welcome, is all we’re asking for.
7. Intelligent -No not Albert Einstein, just let us know that you know what you’re talking about.
8. Maturity - Girls want a guy that will pick around, but have a serious side too. We want a guy, not a 6 year old.
9. Loyal - When we go out with a guy, we want to know that they are focused on us. We really do not want to see you turn around and talk to another girl. Whether its the first date, or the millionth, we get jealous…easily!

There are some things that are very important to a girl. These nine things are the most important that a guy should have, in order to win his girl over.

It's a Crazy Little Thing called LOVE. :D

When I first saw you
I was afraid to talk to you.
When I first talked to you
I was afraid to like you.
When I first liked you
I was afraid to love you.
Now that I love you
I’m afraid to lose you. <3



 THE ONLY EXCEPTION

                                                                        by Paramore



When I was younger, I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart and I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love if it does not exist

But darling, you are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways to make it alone
Or keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable distance
And up until now I had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness
Because none of it was ever worth the risk

But you are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof, it's not a dream, oh

You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception

You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, and I'm on my way to believing.

I LOVE MUSIC!

I'm in love...
I'm in love with someone who can make me feel good about myself and depressed.
Someone who brings passion to my life, who makes me see me for who I really am, or what I believe in.
Someone who I can open myself too when I have no where else to go.
Someone I can cry to and they will only be there to hold me and cheer me up.
Someone who makes me smile and laugh with the memories behind the sweet words that they say.




That someone, is Music. :)

BUKAS NA LIHAM PARA SA NAGPAPANGGAP NA HANDA NANG MAGMAHAL

Sa iyong tunay na nagmamahal,

Makakaasa kang kapag muling nagbukas ang iyong puso ay darating na ang taong para sa iyo. Hindi ngayon sapagkat nalalaman kong mahirap. Mahirap ang lumimot. Hindi ang sinumang taong nagtatangkang lumapit at mahalin ka sa mga oras na ito ang siyang makapagbubukas ng puso mo. Hindi sa mga oras na ito ang paglusong sa panibagong pakikipaglaro sa pag-ibig.

Huwag ngayon sapagkat maaaring maging o nagiging panakip-butas lang siya sa patlang na iniwan ng nakaraan mong mahal. Hindi makatarungang sabihin mo sa sinuman na ang bagong taong dumating ang inihatid ng tadhana para sa iyo. Hindi siya ang taong makatutulong sa iyong lumimot sa nakaraan. Hindi rin makatwirang sabihin mo na pareho kayo ng pinagdaanan kaya kayo nagkasalubong sa gitna ng sanga-sangang daan ng pagmamahal.

Ang gintong aral sa kasalukuyan na dapat mong gabay ay hindi iba o bagong tao ang tutulong sa iyo na gamutin ang malalim na sugat ng pag-iwan o pakikipaghiwalay. Ikaw lamang ang makatutulong sa iyong sarili. Hindi ang iba. Hindi ang pagpasok na muli sa isang bagong relasyon. Sapagkat malalim ang sugat. Malubha ang sakit. Matindi ang hirap na hatid niyon.

Hindi rin siya sa nakaraan ang makapagbabalik-sigla ng iyong puso. Hindi siya at hindi rin iba. Ikaw lamang. Sapagkat tanggapin man natin o hindi, hindi ka pa handa.

Malayo pa ang iyong paglalakbay.

Makakaasa kang kapag muling nagbukas ang iyong puso ay darating na ang taong para sa iyo.